Tuesday, July 26, 2005
just got back from sports camp universe bbq. haha slept for only abt 1hr from almost 6am to 7am at cheng xi's hostel room. i think his room is okay lah, not as cosy-looking as mine :P the fatigue's not kicking in yet, ry's still slping, there's nth much else for me to do so i'll use the time to blog. the bbq was okay. kiwi was v nice, offering to cook the food for us. his roasted marshmellows were damn gd. not too soft, not too hard, with the outer layer a little crispy. really v nice.. haha he din believe me when he asked y i was so quiet n i told him i dun really talk dat much. -shrugs- nonetheless i think he's q a nice guy, v genuine n frenly :) too bad he's not in grp A for the course, if not i think i'd enjoy his company during lectures n stuffs cos he reminds me of ah lam. haha
but anw, after the lights when out at the nanyang house rooftop, my grp went over to cheng xi's hostel at hall 7 to chitchat n play asshole daidee. drank q a bit cos kiwi let me drink his green tea + chivas n later, red wine as forfeit for the asshole daidee. admittedly, i wasnt v close to my grp b4 the bbq but i think after last nite, every1's more bonded now :) hall 7 is q happening in the dead of the nite, which is q fun cos they'v got stone tables at the courtyards for ppl to gather. as far as i noe, hall 2 dun have such things but i still lyk hall 2 cos the canteen is there, the supermart n minimart r both there, the SRC is just across the road, the busstop is right in front of my blk, so it's probably the most convenient hall to live in.
have had 1 lecture so far for the accounting module. it's actually q boring. haha reminds me of econs lecture back in nj. think coming to ntu is really q a big leap from being in nj, mayb cos the campus is much bigger, there'r unfamiliar faces everywhere, n i think the thing i dun lyk most abt uni is dat every1 basically just minds their own business n sticks to their own circle of frens. junhao is right to say dat it's to our advantage to noe more ppl n i kinda regret not going for the nbs camp but it's okay lah. i dun have trouble making frens just as long as the ppl arnd me r okay to get along with. i dun mind being alone if the ppl are seriously not my type of frens. no pt forcing myself to go along with a bunch of ppl i dun lyk yah? bleahs. speaking of making frens, lizhen n jiaying r damn cute. too bad i havent had a chance to really talk to them cos the 1st wk of the semester is more or less cancelled cos of the freshmen welcome, flag day n heritage walk.
considering to bring the extra printer at home to the hostel room cos it isnt cheap to keep going to the library of com labs to print notes from the edveNTUre system. n i'm really damn glad i alr got a laptop thanks to my uncle who bought it for me FOC. it's got lyk everything built in-wireless LAN, bluetooth, IR, practically everything i cld possibly nid to use. the LAN connection is really great tho yq says her fren said when every1 gets their laptops n log on, the system will get really slow. but i think i appreciate the free internet connection dat can b used 24/7, especially so when i'm in the hostel room cos i'v not much other alternative forms of entertainment. mayb'll get a small tv ba. not necessary but i think it's a gd thing to have in the room when u'r damn bored.
heard alot abt snrs failing many modules n having to retake them in the next sem. i'm not too worried at the moment cos i think my family is really pinning their hopes on me n i noe i will work hard when i'm required to do so. i'm going to try n aim for double specialisation, so i must work hard! yah.. wonder how things will turn out as the semester goes along, so hopefully everything'll go well ba! weijing mentioned sth abt managing time well to balance sch, cca, social life n love life.. haha for sch, there's still nth much to talk abt yet. cca, sumhow i just have dis feeling dat i'll b canoeing again but i think i wanna try sth different leh.. shall c how lah. went for cca fair n put my name down for some ccas (mostly water sports), so most prob'll just go down n try them out den c which 1 to choose lor. i dun really mind canoeing or dragonboating lah but just feel really lazy to start training again. getting old, fat n lazy. sux :( haha
social life, i think at the moment my social circle in ntu is q limited cos tho i recog ALOT of nygh ppl, they'r lyk the ppl dat i din really lyk or din talk much to, or arent fren-fren with so i'm q sian diao so c so many ny ppl. bleahs. anw i think pre-ns guys, undergoing-ns guys n post-ns guys r q different tho i cant really say why. just really find dat the guys i noe in jc n those in uni r q different. mayb cos the post-ns ones r more mature ba. -shrugs- love life,.. i guess we'll both b starting to get busy with our work n will probably spend much lesser time tog. feel damn sian abt dat cos it's not as if we meet up dat often at the moment so if we'v to spend even lesser time tog, wun dat little time tog b really little? honestly, i hafta say dat i'm worried abt not spending enuf time with each other cos i'll feel neglected even if it's not intentional. but i guess some things cant b helped. it takes 2 hands to clap lah, so we'll hafta find a way to work things out ba. asked yy yday if she preferred to b attached or not n we both agreed dat there's advantages n disadvantages for both cases. it probably boils down to individual preferences n how stable/unstable the relationship is.
abt relationships.. haha cheng xi was saying how he prefers to wait for the girl to make the 1st move instead of going to chase the girl. i think for his case, he can afford to do dat lah cos he's not bad looking. but i think most girls wldnt wanna go confess to the guy they lyk cos it's just not the norm. anw he said guys usually wldnt wan to b attached to the same girl for too long cos it's lyk playing a game. once the game is completed, most guys'll get sian of the 'game' n wanna try a new 'disk'. he said those who stick to the same gf for a long time cld b bcos they'r too lazy to change 'disk' n play a new game. actually i kinda agree with him. haha mayb it's generalisation lor, but i think it's true for most guys. i cant say it's the same for girls cos i'm still undecided abt whether or not dat applies to girls as well. haha
for me, i dun think i'll b sian of the 'game' i'm playing unless the 'game' is spoilt ba. i think i'm not the kind who will drag too long if there's a problem with the relationship. if all is well, i'm contented. i wun go arnd looking for new 'games' n i wun b interested in anything else either. but if i find dat there's a problem, i'll 1st wait n c if the situation gets better. if it doesnt, i will voice out any unhappiness, if after dat there's no change, den even if i really lyk the 'game', i think it's time to eject the 'disk'. i find no point in continueing to play when the 'disk' is damaged n cannot b saved.
the most impt thing abt being in a relationship is for both parties to b happy ba. if either 1 is not happy, den wad for torture urself? u'll just make urself feel more miserable. 19 is still q young, no rush to settle down n get married or wad, so i think it's stupid if ppl cling on to a relationship for fear of not wanting to b single or for fear of not being able to find sum1 better. i'm not sure if i believe in it, but as wad ppl lyk to say, the right girl/guy for u is sumwhere out there waiting to b discovered. if u'r not happy with ur current bf/gf, isnt it a big indication dat he/she isnt the right one for u? yup. at least dat's wad i think lah.
random thoughts at 5:12:00 PM
